must say that these are real good sentences.

im not an agnostic, nor a atheist. not too brave to be one.but i have any chance, maybe i am.must say that being believer is just only happened by grace.

“I tried to find Him on the Christian Cross, but He was not there;

I went to the Temple of the Hindus and to the pagodas, but I could not find a trace of Him anywhere.

I searched on the mountains and in the valley and across the deserts, but neither in the heights nor in the depths was I able to find Him.

I went to the Kaaba in Mecca, but He was not there either.

I questioned the scholars and the philosophers but He was beyond their understanding.

I then looked into my heart and it was there where He dwelled that I saw Him;

He is no where else to be found, for words are useless (specially sentences) and life defies definition.”

~ Jalal Uddin Rumi~

[one man had ever sung it. sweet]

It’s amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you dont say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me when ever I fall
You say it best..when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd (the crowd)
Try as they may they can never define
Whats been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Lets me know that you need me..

there are much of ironic happen in our life.

contoh nih contohnya,, daku pengen sekali ke bali. waktu kuliah ampe nangis merengek2 ingin ke bali. then, when i have enough-but-not-much money, i urge to go there with my own money. i had one of the best moment in life there, met my closests friend, together with my boyfriend. what a momentual.

one month later, i’m surprised when my boss commands me to go there together with my co-worker. it is for free. I actually see it as a rare and -wow its rock- opportunity. but apparently i m not feeling as happy as the first time. all the enthusiasm,the passion, the longing has disappeared.moreover, i might not see erifle there.and no boyfriend too.huh.

hmmmff, im kind of melancholic yay.. but i get it. now, that i must change the tagline, “from bali is the most beautiful place” be the “with u is the most precious and beautiful moment”.

indeed. i miss my old time with my friends. always do

mari kita buat back up wan,,

kalau sudah jadi, perjuangkan perbesaran backhaul main wan dari 6 Mega menjadi 100 Mega. jadi kita punya clear channel 4 Mega for every branch. wow.

saat jaringan membaik, pertimbangkan untuk memeperkecil kapasitas wan, biar hemat gitu loh.

lalu,,, ya itu dia.. sambil berjalan pikirkan bagaimana sentralisasi aplikasi dan database untuk aplikasi CIS, terminal services apa yang akan digunakan, objek apa yang berubah, skema relasi apa yang harus diubah, bagaimana efek ke depan. dan yang paling penting, siapa yang mengerjakan?? ow, shit, the changing isnt that simple, boss. i mean it.

masalah biaya,  nanti dulu.

then,, how bout migrasi?? bagaimana kita memigrasi dengan aman, agar tidak terjadi kesalahan yang kecil maupun yang fatal??  apakah didampingi ke site selama 1 bulan? cukupkah 1 bulan?? who will assiste them?

oia sebelum itu tolong deskripsikan masalah server-server yang mati selama 6 bulan terakhir, bagaimana downnya mempengaruhi tingkat pelayanan dan tunggakan di pln jakarta.

fyuuuhhh…..

oke jaringan bagus dan aplikasi tersentralisasi. oia, sekarang rekonfigurasi lan buat kantor distribusi, switch2 tua diganti dengan yang baru, manageable dan layer 3. bagaimana dengan router pak?? kita letakkan dimana?? pastikan kita punya network map, well organized.

well, pikirkan tentang SMART- Self Monitoring, Analysis and Reporting Technology.. istilah yang baru gw tau malam ini. Yakz, that is how we monitor our hardware… -this will be my own project

fyuuuuhhh

di sela-sela perjuangan, pikirkan inventarisasi hardware, every hardware coming, harus tercatat spesifikasinya. ini perlu untuk memonitoring pengadaan hardware ke depan. semoga bos2 tidak suka mengambil pulang sendiri laptop buat ngerjain TA anaknya. -my another project too

dan satu lagi, belajar CISCO,LINUX dan pemrograman CIS, pake VB pula.

hmmm, long enough list for this year. i wont get bored at work

i apparently cant see why she is prefer to buy water for her ALONE, rather than share it. is that her with her “i don’t have problem with money” or me, who always come up with idea, “we can buy and share it together”, be the problem?

Go to hell with ur gallon of aqua. i swear i wont drink it.

maaf Indonesia..

aku golput lagi..

kalau ada putaran kedua,, pasti daku ikut..

semoga ada..

routines – might be a term in IT, but for me just a slight conscious moment to hardly stop grieving, complaining, blaming or just asking and chose to do it in the same way others do it. i hate to be similar though

what’s the matter of being envy? envy others who did things better is a good sign of any reformation. stop say, “be grateful”. i don’t know how to do it.

arifle, pizza and coding. i guess i miss it

i am tired

i can not even think another words precious writen here

cause i am tired and i am crying,

i am moron, pathetic and dumb

and somehow,,, somehow i dont need to hear any words like ‘be patient, be thankful or be calm’.

i just need your hands, your words, your steady, your understanding.

i am egoist then,

but give me hours to burst out my feeling,

just like when i was a child. i didn’t need to be strong and dependable.

cause i am not.

i know all the cries wont lease any problems, i know it makes me dumber and more useless.

but let me be the stupid then, so i can be my self.

[in my messy office]

I was tagged by Sammy!Rules: Answer each question with a word starting with the first letter of your name.  Tag 10 friends to answer the questions.

temen : kan enak cepet nikah… nimang dede… aq udah kepengen

gue : hiiiiii,,,, serem

with all due respect, ugh, apa enakya sih nikah muda??